I’m a wee bit behind and I apologize. Saying it’s been a crazy week is an understatement. Let’s begin.
I think the program and myself included put an enormous amount of pressure on ourselves right at the ‘Go!’ of this semester. Coming over of flyin with no sleep, raging stress, and agitation, it’s incredibly hard to regroup in a few days before starting the biggest semester our program has. Everyone realized the workload would only increase as the semester went on and to that point have spent countless hours working on everything since the end of January.
And then this past week occured and everyone cracked.
And not in the most obvious of ways, but the tension and edge in the air was suffocating. Everyone did their best to hide their crazed eyes, but it was quite clear that a break was needed for everyone. With that, a reevaluation of ourselves and our work.
I myself have realized I need to calm down with my capstone. I’m a person that is going to get it done, so killing myself so early on is ridiculous when there are other events and projects that have to be done. Feeling guilty about going home around 8pm is ludicrous, there is plenty of time available so I should be able to sleep.
I could not get any work done last week than the barest of bare minimum. My brain was complete mush and could not grasp any concept or design any site. Nothing. Now, a lot of this is due to the lack of sleep I was getting because of an obnoxious neighbor above me, but midweek I just had to tell myself to stop. What’s the point of forcing myself to do anything if it’s going to come out as complete crap?
To top it all off, I had some sort of food poisoning or 24 hour stomach flu and let’s just say I felt like death. Still a bit hazy this morning, however getting myself away from so much school was the best thing I could have done for myself. Granted, I love my work and I love what I do, but everyone needs a break and needs to escape from pressure because you, we, I are all going to crack. And we did. I did.
In the end, I apologize for my lack of work and blogs but it was necessary and now I can get back to making really good stuff. Because I can do that. It’s what I do. I make good stuff.